Hectic

I could not summarize the past two or three weeks in a word. All I can say it was hectic. But the good kind of hectic. I totally immersed myself in work and catching up with friends and trying to micromanage them, finances. So a balance of wonderful moments at work and even more wonderful moments with friends.

The past two weeks were hectic. There I've said it again. No, make that February's been hectic. Not to mention the change of schedules and scheduling conflicts, too many deliveries and dealing with annoying workers in the hospital (not doctors). But somehow February made sense.

The past month I have been trying to grapple about fulfillment, weighing in my career choices and trying to tighten my grip on reality without bordering on either controlling or delusional. I guess it is because of changes. I always turn to overthinking, overemoting and nostalgia when change comes looming in. As I have aged, I have become less and less emo but sometimes I'd crack that all I want to do is crawl up in bed and write non sensical bullshit or at least try to come up with something presentable for a blog post.

Lately I have been ambivalent about some things and of decisions. Occasionally I'd want this and that and then the next day my mind changes. In conclusion I really need to be happy regardless of whatever happens not because of what will happen next. But yeah, I'm happier now compared to my irritable, agitated mood during the holidays.

So I don't know how to end this one. Honestly I have been formulating this in my head for over a week and a half now and its getting annoying in my head at least thats why I have to get this out of my neurons. Now back to the hectic week. I've worked from Sunday to Saturday and went out everyday of the week except on Sundays. We won the Special Edition Second Anniversary Trivia Night on Friday. Saturday Jo came to Cebu and super catch up with pizza, pasta and doughnuts. Shopping on the side. Sunday was crazy day at work. Monday was the Eat All You Can Buffet at Radisson Blu and I am going crazy for their sushi bar and dessert selections. Homemade ice cream anyone? Definitely coming back! Tuesday I watched two exceptionally made films in the Bisaya language - Dili Ingon Nato and My Paranormal Romance (more on this some other time). Wednesday met up with one of my closest friends from medical school Mayee and talked about life, careers( this has got to be topic of the year for me) and her engagement. We talked about leaps of faith and lots of hope for our futures. Thursday and Friday Trivia Night and Saturday was the Board Game Session which lasted until the wee hours of the morning and it was so competitive and of course fun! I passed out on the couch.

And another thing, fulfillment and all those shit still confuse me sometimes. And yes I still want that yellow board shorts damn it!