Fast March

That is all I can say for this month. It was really fast. And in six days, the first quarter of this year is over. And so far so good. It feels like, at least for me, I am a plane taking off, still trying to reach the required altitude to get to the next destination. And I have to post something because I will be more busy for the next fifteen days and it will be April soon. I just need one more post for March.

This month I was happy to be working on weekends. It was a change of pace, more time for relaxation which equates to more time for books, movies and friends and I don't have to wake up early every day. It can be toxic but I'd prefer it anytime compared to my office hours schedule. And I also requested this so that I could have more time for rest and leisure. But as it turns out I was motivated to accept extra sidelines for cash. The first two days of March I was full on bumming mode. During the first weekend my duty at the ER was bloody to say the least. Then the week after booked myself with two days of medical consultations. And the next thing I knew, I was already booked almost every day for three to six hours of medical consultations from North to South of Cebu. And I feel really blessed. I always will stick to my day job because it is stable and pays well. However these extra shifts and sidelines allows me to get some goodies, eat good food occasionally, drinks with friends and extra savings these days doesn't hurt. As long as I am available, no matter how far the location (farthest up North was Bogo and farthest down South was Oslob), I'd always say yes. Just when the ball started rolling for me, the hospital for residency applications called. They told me I was qualified for pre-residency but not necessarily a sure bet for the item. So I filed for leave and did all the required papers hence I got all the more busy. After medical consultations I'd stop by at the hospital and once I got the go signal I started getting jittery. I finished all my commitments and now I am a bit scared but at the same time crossing my fingers and hope that this is it. However I will be expecting for the worse as usual. And that's basically the summary of this month - anxiety and inferiority. Sigh. Let's hope that the next fifteen days will be as fast! Lets do this!

Speaking of goodies, I recently bought a couple of books from BookSale. Seriously, every time I go in, I always buy something when I go out of a branch. And also from National Bookstore. But I really got these books at cheap, totally worth it prices.

Books I got from BookSale:
1.) Midnight Miles - A photo book of Maroon 5's tour way back 2003-2004. I got this for 325 pesos. Colored and in good condition.
2.) Kiss and Tell - An official guide to Sex and the City. In mint condition except for a little tear on the back part of the cover near the spine, which I repaired with tape. This is price at 899 pesos at FullyBooked, got it for 245 pesos
3.) Grunge - A coffee table hardbound book about the Grunge movement and the iconic bands of the era. Yup, only 90 pesos.
4.) The Beautiful and the Damned by F. Scott Fitzgerald , Wordsworth Classics Edition. The cover is just random but its only 75 pesos and in great condition

Books from National Bookstore:
1.) What I Talk About Running - Haruki Murakami. A hardbound edition for 175 pesos.
2.) The Curious Case of Benjamin Button by F. Scott Fitzgerald - only 75 pesos too!
3.) Rolling Stone Magazine's 500 Greatest Albums of All Time - Hardbound, printed last 2005, with tears along the flap jacket but nonetheless still a bargain for 250 pesos.
4.) Man of My Dreams by Curtis Sittenfield - Hardbound original price at 799, got it for 99 pesos and gave it as a gift.

I know I shouldn't be buying more books but I do anyway. Its an impulse that is hard to suppress but I will be taking the summer to read all these books and the others that are in line. So far, I've only finished five books this year and currently reading two. I can't wait for the next two weeks. I'll just have to suck it up!

Ch... ch... changes..

Change always confuses me. It always leaves an unsettling feeling. Uncertainty, anxiety and fear combined. I just recently dealt with change and transferred my ass to a new comfort zone. Suddenly a curve ball comes my way - the good kind of curve ball. Something that you have always wanted for a long time. But now I don't want to move my ass to a new comfort zone. Its no man's land. I was just getting comfortable in my new phase. I was ecstatic of course as my dreams are coming full circle but the formation of that circle will bring forth more waiting, more questions. Its time to take a leap of faith again. This time with my eyes blindfolded and I don't know where will I land - water, sand or rocks. Yup its that terrifying. Quite ironic that something I've hoped for, for quite a long time, that has swallowed me whole with not so pleasant consequences is semi actualized but yet it has transported me in an unstable state of more wondering. Changes scare the beejezus out of me.

But all I can do is hope for the best, expect the worse, have a little faith in myself, suck it up, go with the flow and do your best. So here's to fucking changes!

Like the song in the video above goes.. "Everything is gonna be alright.... Rockabye...

P.S.: I have a tendency to overplay this song every time I am about to face major life changes, u-turns and picking a new road to start a journey.